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anchor (rough mix)
03:55
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they say there’s courage in standing alone
they say you prefer it in time
but if i can choose then i’d rather have you
if that makes me a coward then fine
they say it hurts you to need someone
and you’ve got your own two feet
but i need an anchor, a port in a storm
just like i need the waves underneath
sure i could pretend i’d be better without you
i could convince myself you’re just no good
but nobody sees me the way that you see me
and if you should leave me, nobody else would
and i could pretend that i don’t even miss you
i could walk by without saying your name
but i’ll never stop kicking myself if i lose you
it may hurt, but oh darlin’
you’re worth the price of the pain
what you are to me has a weight that i wear
an heirloom that can’t be replaced
and if they are right and this world’s out of light
then how come i feel it when i see your face?
like colors your eyes can know only when closed
like the warmth when you’re welcomed inside
how lucky i am
just to see you again
when there’s no guarantee that you’re mine
sure i could pretend i’d be better without you
i could convince myself you’re just no good
but nobody sees me the way that you see me
and if you should leave me, nobody else would
and when you do leave me (cause some day you’ll leave me)
i’ll sing in your memory, i’ll honor your name
and i’ll always love you, you make it so easy
it may hurt, but oh darlin’
you’re worth the price of the pain
they say there’s courage in standing alone
they say you prefer it in time
but if i can choose then I’d rather have you
if that makes me a coward then fine
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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2. |
si vos audire
03:08
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started with a spark or someone missed a match
light off into light on, wait and watch it catch
running like a fever, never coming down
raging like a river, roaring through this town
you might not pray but just the same
hold out your hands and pray for rain
danger's at the neighbor's, sad and far away
soon enough the blue sky's going yellow gray
heavy haze is hanging
knocking at your door
it's come a couple summers
not so close before
you might not pray but just the same
no stone unturned to fight these flames
all is not lost, so much to save
we're out of time, we're primed for change
you might not pray but just the same
hold out your hands and pray for rain
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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3. |
room to breathe
03:20
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he wants to drive you up to the hills due east
when the night starts falling, wants to sweep you off your feet
he won’t have a say a lot, you know it isn’t fair
and you hate that he can win you back if he can get you there
the city’s got towers taller than trees
scattered lights shining bright, spread as far as you can see
and he says he takes it back, it sounds just like the truth
and it makes a lot of sense to a girl like you
you see a sky in california
you see a life in california
and anyway
you need some room to breathe
you can’t grow until you shed some skin
and you need some place to be
cause you’ve been lost since you can’t remember when
oh whoa whoa whoa
(you’re ready to feel it)
on whoa whoa whoa
so he’s got a lot of friends but you’re not the jealous kind
it’s your job to set it right when he crosses every line
and he says he takes it back, it sounds just like the truth
and bad things don’t happen to good girls like you
like you
you saw the sky in california
thought you’d be fine in california
but you need some room to breathe
you can't grow if you’re just caving in
and you need some place to be
cause you’ve been lost since you can’t remember when
oh whoa whoa whoa
(you’re ready to feel it)
oh whoa whoa whoa
you’ve gotta get out of california
you’ve gotta get out of california
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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strangers
03:13
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it was you and me on an empty street
and the lights were all low and i tried not to stare
and you never promised, if i’m being honest
i thought i was ready for you not to care
then i took one look at you
and right then, i guess i knew
and you had no idea
you had no idea
i couldn’t say a word
sometimes i would question if it even happened
you said that you knew me, i questioned that, too
i knew time had passed and it was built not to last
but despite my best judgment i followed you through
and each day on seas of doubt
i watched you drift further out
and i tried to scream
and i tried to shout
i couldn’t say a word
will you please forgive me if i acted silly?
i wasn’t expecting to see you tonight
when you called me over, i was less than sober
i don’t even know her, i’m sure she’s alright
but you took one look at me
and right then, i was sure you’d see
i thought it was ready
i thought i was ready
i thought
thought i was ready for you not to care
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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straight line
03:08
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it’s gonna go slow
move up and fall back
i’ll blame someone else
and cover my tracks
won’t be a straight line
but give it some time
and you’re gonna see it
it’s gonna feel wrong
i want to be right
can’t say i won’t run
but I’m dying to fight
won’t be a straight line
but give me some time
and you’re gonna see it
i always let you down, it’s never on purpose
i ask your forgiveness, hope that i've earned it
i know the way i love you isn’t perfect
i’m working on it
honest
you have some doubts, that much I can see
but i love the sure words you’ve spoken to me
i’m trying to play smart
i’m trying to work hard
and you’re gonna see it
you carry my weight
you muffle my doubt
it seems like my fault
how it always plays out
won’t be overnight
but i’ll set it right
you’re gonna see it
i always let you down, it’s never on purpose
i ask your forgiveness, hope that i've earned it
i know the way i love you isn’t perfect
i’m working on it
honest
i’m working on it
won’t be a straight line
but give it some time
you’re gonna see it
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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paper cranes
03:29
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paper cranes and steel guitar strings
there are parts of you inside these things
part you left when you were leaving
parts i kept but not for keeping
and if i could i would erase them
i know that time would just replace them
with more little signs that you are still around
building it up just to knock it down
you’re over it now, i know that’s what’s best
i guess i’ve got just one last request
would you look at me and try to see what used to be beautiful in me?
then let me know if it’s worth all this mess
full moon skies, summer humming
i guess i knew this day was coming
i should’ve told you i was sorry
what’s stubborn now you once found charming
were you aware that day i kissed you?
could you feel how much i’d missed you?
you never did send me that letter
i tell myself it’s for the better
i waited two months for that letter
and i tell myself this way’s better
remember the park and my present dress?
i guess i’ve got just one last request
whatever you said to me back then, do you think you could say it to me again?
then let me know if it’s worth all this mess
the timing wasn’t right
until that night and the words from that old song
oh, "but never meant to last"
we let it be the past, it happened and it’s gone
still, i wouldn’t trade anything for those days
no
you’re over it now, i know that’s what’s best
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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means to amends
03:23
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strange how we left things, no means to amends
strange i don't know you, we're not even friends
we both said forever whenever we went
back then i thought i knew what that meant
i used to find you all over the place
a voice in the street and my heart used to race
one glimpse and i'd swear you were lost in the crowd
i don't even know what you look like now
sometimes i wake up and i think it's too late
call me a coward, there ain't no tempting fate
haunted by all the things that i haven't done
whenever it mattered, all i did was run
strange how we left things, so much wasn't said
i wanted to tell you, i walked out instead
they say at its core, loving means letting go
i didn't believe them
strange how we left things
we're not even friends
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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open wide
04:58
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the words I regret are the words left unsaid
like the time with the boys on the bus
kids can be mean when they’re feeling unseen
better the shoe than the bug
a bully, home broken
i still could have spoken
i could’ve done all that I could
and should I forgive him?
it’s not a decision
cause deep down I know that I should
deep down I know that I should
so open wide, starry-eyed
leading with your heart this time
name what you’ve always known
get it right, hell, say it twice
or save your face and spend your life
learning to leave it alone
learning to leave it alone
the thing about time is it changes its mind
you think you have more than enough
to say what you mean
to let water run clean
over old wounds you'd rather not touch
you’re not really ready
so you’re holding steady
say later but mean not now
when later finds you
those good years behind you
you’ll find yourself asking how
find yourself asking how
so open wide, starry-eyed
leading with your heart this time
name what you’ve always known
get it right, hell, say it twice
or save your face and spend your life
learning to leave it alone
learning to leave it alone
learning to leave it alone
learning to leave it alone
learning to leave it alone
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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three people
03:31
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giving up, going down down down
giving up, my heart's on fire
giving up, going down down down
giving up, down to the wire
giving up, going down down down
giving up, my heart's on fire
giving up, going down down down
giving up, going down down
three people on this secret now
was two before, it comes around
you always said she was a friend
what does it matter in the end?
three people laying open now
two liars tried but one truth's out
i always thought she was a friend
and friendship fucked me in the end
one day out of nothing
just comes out and boy it's something
why'd you tell me on the drive home?
did you think that I'd just let it go?
watch your words, they're contradicting
why am i the one we're fixing?
you and i agreed, it would only ever be the two of us
giving up, going down down down
giving up, my heart's on fire
giving up, going down down down
giving up, down to the wire
three people on this secret now
was two before, it comes around
you always said she was a friend
what does it matter in the end?
three people and their histories
for all I know, it's more than three
i guess you called them all your friends
what does it matter in the end?
silence was your answer
left it there to spread like cancer
damage done below the surface
pulled the pin out without purpose
watch your words, they're contradicting
why am i the one we're fixing?
you and i agreed, it would only ever be the two of us
but it never was
giving up, going down down down
giving up, my heart's on fire
(but it never was)
giving up, going down down down
giving up, down to the wire
(but it never was)
giving up, going down down down
giving up, my heart's on fire
giving up, going down down down
giving up, going down down
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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10. |
these days
04:23
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will we live to see the blossoms in the backyard?
flowers we planted too late into spring?
these days these kinda thoughts are never too far
i know it’s alright and i also don’t know anything
is it tuesday or wednesday? i’ve forgotten
is it still june, or is it july?
cut around the worms but the core is still rotten
i should throw it out but i want to believe it’s alright
i should throw it out but i want to believe it’s alright
these days
these days
these days
these days
just history repeating
no hope
no hope
no hope
no hope
just time intervening
this home
this home
and all i’ve known
internally bleeding
this pain
a flame
a fire untamed
untamed without meaning
without meaning
late september cleared the smoke and brought us sunlight
pink petals looking through the leafy green
these days, awake, alive, and offered this life
i’m scared to be here but there’s nowhere that i’d rather be
i know it’s alright but i also don’t know anything
i know it’s alright but i also don’t know anything
© 2021 Adrienne Bocci-Barrett
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ienne Lynn Portland, Oregon
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